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15 July 2009 @ 08:36 pm
I keep playing your cards, but it's not my scene.  
Here we are again.

So summer is just about halfway over...I don't know where the time has gone to be honest. I guess into a blur of parties, bars, work and god knows what else.

It's a struggle everyday to drag my ass into work haha. The double paychecks make it worth it though and I love the kids. I started working in the Autism program at night, which kind of sucks but the money is faaantastic. Can't beat it.

I'm so stressed with some things though. My bank card was stolen, fucked up my account. Bullshit at work about emergency certificates and everything else. It's summer...I shouldn't have worries.

OCMD with the WB crew is coming up. I'm sooo excited for that! I'm thinking about going out to CO for Thanksgiving to see my brother. Don't know yet definitely yet. He's coming home in August for a week and we're going a bunch of day trips here and there (including 3eb at Musikfect!)

Friends and family are good. Although as predicted our volleyball team sucks haha. It always amazes me how things change. I think back to last year around this time and how just by starting at the Friendship House has allowed me to meet all of these amazing people. I love them.

I think I'm heading down a shakey road with things. I think I'm starting to get attached although I know I shouldn't, thats it's dumb, that it wouldn't work and I'm an idiot for doing this to myself, again. I don't know why I gravitate towards assholes all the time. And as much as I may deny it, I don't know if it's possible to not become emotionally invested in a situation like this. But there are moments when I just can't help it. I never thought I'd be saying bullshit like this, but I love waking up next to someone and the feeling of going to sleep in someone's arms. Daaaaamn. Why is it always complicated?

I can't stop reading recently.

I feel so in-between with life right now in so many ways. Overall though, its good.
Current Music: Jack Johnson - Sitting, Waiting, Wishing